First off, hello, I'm Black Mage. This is my Blog. This is where I dump my thoughts, actions, and feelings in a given moment in time.
This can, and does include people in my life. Thus, if I know you and real life, be aware that I may:
I apologize, and please do not read any further if you don't want to see me in this light.
Well, summer’s over, BMG.
I had many blog posts in my mind as the weeks gone by, but every time I brought pen to paper, the ringing would begin, and another 40 minute call would ensue. I do my write up for the call, and it all starts over again. Call, solution, writeup. Call, schedule, writeup.
I have about 3 quarter-written blog posts from June and July, but it’s been so long that the topic I was going to talk about have since expired. Which is a shame, really, I’d love to talk about my Vita and my quest into Final Fantasy 13! Or maybe my journey into England this summer! And my birthday! I turned 22 in between these blog posts!
I’ve been having so many issues with my graduate studies. I’m going to a different college than the one I went to for my bachelor’s degree, and everything is different, but in the worst ways imaginable. For example, we use Microsoft Outlook instead of Google gmail. Now, I understand that it might be two terrible services, and I would much rather the college selfhost their email clients, but Microsoft Outlook has been having infinitely more issues than gmail ever has. For example: When I try to log into my school email, it will immediately log me out. Why? Nobody knows! I tried using other browsers, restarting my browsers, restarting my computer, nothing. The one thing that worked was using an incognito window. Great job guys, I have to access my school email the same way I had to access porn when I was a teenager.
Next thing wrong is my “Computer Security Design” class. I’m just gonna drop the ball here, I’m dropping this class. The professor gave us a shittily copy-pasted syllabus with incorrect information, broken links, and wrong due dates. Our first assignment? Write a 10 page paper with 10 scholarly sources about what we know about “what is secure by design?”. I’m sorry, excuse me? I’ll write what I know about secure by design right here!
I don’t know anything about “secure by design”, that is why I am taking this class.
Of course, I know more than just that, I learned about defensive coding in my undergraduate class, and common sense about security principles, but not enough for a 10 page paper. And the 10 cited sources? The professor told us that we are just writing what we know before the class, so do I cite myself 10 times? And, as I write this, there is no way to turn in this paper, the paper that is due today. As well as there is no written guidelines for this paper, only the verbal one line sentence of “write about what you know about secure by design.” Worst part, is that I have to write a 10 page paper with 10 sources every week!
So I’m done with this class not even a week in, if the professor isn’t going to give a shit, why should I give them any. Now, if only I could drop the class without Outlook logging me out!
So that’s where I’ve been, BMG. If a Bachelor Degree is hard mode compared to a high school degree’s normal mode, then this Master Degree is turning out to be nightmare mode. I’m sure I’ll be fine, just gotta move some stuff around. I hope to write to you again soon!
Once again, been a while BMG.
I write to you again because things are significantly looking up in my life. I’m back home now, gonna live here for quite a while. I’ve been applying for jobs in my field, and I finally got one! Took a while, was losing hope near the end, but through sheer persistence, I got a summer job that can suit me and my strong suits, and I start today! (I wrote this paragraph on the 9th, lol)
I don’t really know how much detail I can go into, mostly because I haven’t exactly done much of anything yet or how it entirely works, but I’m basically just a tech support agent for a networking company. I’ve worked with routers before, heck, I have a router right next to my computer here! I’ve also built out a little office where I can work in peace. My cats love the attic now that I’ve cleaned it up, and they won’t stop bothering me! I still love them so much though.
I’m also doing some accounting for my uncle. It’s hell! There’s so many numbers, and so many more numbers missing. Most of what I’m doing now is guess work compared to what I was doing just 3 days ago. Eh, at least it pays well, but it’s so mind numbing.
I also hauled over my grandma’s old CRT TV into my attic! I’m planning on moving my super retro games to the attic so I can play them in the most authentic way possible. Maybe one day I’ll take some pictures of the setup. This is the FIRST time I’ve ever played retro consoles on a CRT TV, and it feels so nice. No more blurry pixels! This also means I was able to play Duck Hunt authentically!
I also hooked up a little HDMI to AV converter, in the future I’d love to be able to build an emulation station that can play games and hook up with RetroAchievements! It’s pretty scuffed right now, trying to take a 1080p picture and cramming it into a 240p screen. But in the future I’m sure I’ll actually get proper converters for this project.
But now my job leaves me oh so tired. 8 hours of what amounts to basically non-stop attention to calls, information, routers, etc. all leads to a drained feeling at the end of the day.
So I’ll see you later BMG! I’ve traded my free time for cash that I so desperately need. Hope to write to you in the future.
Long time no see BMG.
It's as if the weight of one thousand suns has been lifted off my chest, to think a week ago I was having anxiety attacks over if I was going to graduate or not. Fear overcoming me, like everything I’ve done for the past 4 years of my life have been for nothing, the past 8 years, 11 years, 16 years. All because of something I might have forgotten. Asking everyone around me: “Am I okay?”
Trying to relax, playing games. No. Something isn’t right.
Trying to socialize, talking to others. No. You’re forgetting something.
Trying to sleep, letting the time pass. No. You can’t afford to give in.
It was only when I got that email, my name on that list. That I could finally rest.
I might not have graduated with high honors, I might not even know what my final grades are. I don’t care about any of that anymore. I’m sure my parents will or whatever, but I made it through college.
I did it.
I made it.
I will make it.
And I’ll miss it.
College was fun. I made a lot of friends, and I’ll try to keep in touch with as many as I can, but the truth is, I won’t see many of them again.
Hey Gamers,
Physical update:
Very good! I'm no longer having any severe pain from my incision! It's almost perfectly healed up, doing good! Gonna try to start working out more like I used to before all this.
Mental update:
Less good! I'm feeling really stressed all the time, like as if I'm bottling up something, and I think I know what it is. If you weren't aware, I am currently a senior in college. You might be thinking, "Wow! you have your whole life ahead of you!" And yeah! That's really stressful! I'm really struggling to stay focused on my work, and I just end up overwhelmed, which leads to no work getting done, which leads to more stress, and I'm just in a perpetual state of burn-out.
I promise I'm trying my hardest, I just have this mental block right now, and it's really bad. I don't think I have ADHD or anything like that, and I'm not going to self diagnose. It's just this feeling of impending doom that I've had for a long while now, like I'll never be good enough, and that I'm not ready for life yet.
In other news: I have applied for graduate school. I'm currently applying for Cyber Security, and I hope it helps my future resume and job searches. My main gripe is that I prefer development, and the Cyber Security umbrella doesn't have many developer roles.
More news: I brought my Xbox 360 to college, I hope to make some videos about it, maybe upload them to YouTube. I'm uploading them to Instagram right now, check it out here if you're interested.
Some behind the scenes info on why I'm posting to Instagram again:
So basically, there's this pedophile on Instagram and I would always joke that if he ever got 200+ followers, I would start posting again. Unfortuately, that happened. I plan on posting about HIM later, I just need to be careful because he non-stop harasses people who call him out, hell, he's posted several call out posts about me reaching out to people about him. ;-;
Anyways, that's another update from me, I hope you stay safe out there on the net.
Stay gaming out there.
Hope every Gaming Black Mage has a great day after reading this one.
I’ll start with the big update:
My surgery was a success! Anyone who knows anything about inguinal hernias should know that it’s a relatively simple operation. I would go into more detail, but I was asleep during the surgery. Heck, I don’t even remember some of the things I was told before the surgery. And also going into detail would be kind of gross.
But all you have to know is that:
My balls don’t hurt anymore!
Now my stomach hurts! Or I guess just the area where they cut into me now. My pain is much lower than when I started. This isn’t to say it doesn’t hurt, but it’s much better now.
Been lying down a lot, but still trying to move as much as I can. Playing a lot more Xbox 360 in my downtime, Saints Row is a lot of fun. My copy of Xbox Live Arcade: Unplugged just arrived today. I love Bejeweled and Geometry Wars so much. Almost as much as I love cheap games!!! I think the arcade collections are really important for game preservation. Did you know that there’s an achievement in Bejeweled 2 for getting to round 280! According to Exophase, only 3% of players have that achievement! Insane.
Got to see my cousins, I told them about my website. They remind me of younger versions of myself, only difference is that I didn’t have any older cousins to look up to. Also mentioned to them that they could buy cheaper Xbox 360 games for their new Xbox Series X! Their dad was happy when I said that, and was talking about how great it would be if he stopped buying $70 games for both of them.
Missed some class due to this surgery, but I’m back at college now. Wrote most of this while I was still at home. Driving was okay, roads are awful after the ice storms earlier last month. Pain doesn’t feel sharp anymore, but it still hurts when I do some things, like sneezing! Achoo? More like ouchoo!
Anyways, things are fine right now, I’ll be fine, mentally fine.
Thank you for reading.
Goooooooooooooooooood morning BMG!
Been on a bit of a nostalgia kick recently, I decided to start playing my Xbox 360 a lot more over this last weekend because I went back home. Been stuck with singleplayer games since I'm not exactly ready to give Microsoft 10 bucks a month yet, maybe in the future. I've been seeing this dude online saying he's the "last Xbox 360 player in 2025" but I call bullshit, because I see some of my friends still online on theirs. I'm mostly stuck to my dad's old games, which means a lot of racing games, but I've been playing some Skyrim and Bejeweled before I go to bed, nice and relaxing. Maybe over this summer I'll go game hunting, or get Xbox Live gold and play some COD. I attribute this mostly to a nice video I watched about classic Halo multiplayer in the modern age, really good video.
Also plugged in my Atari 2600+ that my dad got me for Christmas, I'm happy with it, the 10 in 1 game cart it comes with was cool, I freaking love Yars' Revenge. Hope one day I can get ET, not because the game sucks, but because my mom loves ET. I think it would be cool to show her, bring back that moment from her childhood.
Aaaaaaaand finally, the reason I went home for the weekend. Now, this is really embarrassing for me, but this blog is personal and embarrassing, so whatever.
I've been having, how do I put this...
Ball pain.
For the past 2 weeks.
Oh my god, something like that was horrifying to me, it was persisting or getting worse as the day went on, and I was finally diagnosed over this weekend with a hernia. Which, granted, I think is the best case scenario. I'm gonna need surgery, which is gonna take me out of school for a bit. So I'm at an impasse, do I stomach more pain and wait until spring break for my surgery? Or do I get the surgery as soon as possible, but miss some classes?
Yeah, life kinda sucks right now, been playing COD, game kinda sucks, wanting to play Halo but I don't have any friends to play it with. ._.
Been still talking to that girl! I still like her, she still likes me, more of the same, but we're not a thing.
So goodbye BMG, hope life turns around. Been practicing a lot of self hate, and apparently that doesn't work.
Ough... My balls...
I'm in England again, visiting my step father's family. It's cold and rainy, as it always is in England from what I'm told. It's still so weird here, everything is so similar but so very different. It probably doesn't help that I'm from a lower income area in the United States, because everything here seems so expensive, yet so vast at the same time. The people are nice enough, family specifically. I've noticed a bit of a trend with gambling casinos and vape stores in town, which has me a bit worried for the people of England, as I don't partake in either. Hell, on the New Years broadcast, this woman said she would get into crypto gambling! The biggest casino plant if I've ever seen one.
Alright, enough beating around the bush, how am I? I apologize for leaving you on a cliffhanger last blog post. It just seemed that everything in my life just kept getting worse, and also finals happened and I can't really do anything during that time. The thing that's got me down the most is that I lost a very promising internship,
it sent me deeper into my depression
and now my life seems kind of...
how do I put it...
Aimless?
I try not to dwell on it too much, but it meant a lot to me. I passed all of my finals, and all of my classes! That's good, I'm still on track to graduate! And I've started work on my senior project, and I'll try to keep updates here as I continue to work on it.
And, I know it's the last thing you want to hear from me, but I've fallen for another girl. She's really cool, and we're both into the same things, and she's nice to me, and... I don't know, I just like her.
I'm sure this won't age poorly!
Ah, whatever, it's off my chest now.
Here's to another year! Off to update my date at the bottom of every page!
Ugh... The champagne is kicking in...
I'm so tired.
I woke up at 4:14 AM from a horrible nightmare. I was shaking and my heart was racing.
The stress is getting to me, I don't really know what to do, I have trouble sleeping, concentrating, thinking, etc.
I don't want to get into politics, because I find it quite polarizing, but it's added a lot of stress and doom to my mindset.
I don't have any support to fall back on like I used to, not like I'd ever want to put any of my stress onto anybody.
The days just keep getting longer.
But hey, atleast the new Fortnite season is fun.
Today I signed up for my last semester of college. I'm taking only computer science classes, no more bullshit. Except for an AI class. Bleh.
I'll be fine, I just need to dig myself out of this rut, it just makes it so much more difficult when your partners take away the shovel.
It’s been over a month now since I’ve begun to feel terrible, and things just keep getting worse.
I’ve been trying to work on myself, make things better, and improve my mental image of myself.
But all at once it feels like none of that matters anymore.
I feel like there’s too much negativity in the world. I stopped using Twitter so much because of it, but all of these negative thoughts about myself have been overwhelming. I didn’t want this to bleed into my friendships, so I distanced myself from them. There was an increasing amount of hostility in my online friend group, specifically towards me, further driving me away.
Over a week ago I asked my friend to talk about some things happening, addressing my absence, and hopefully fixing the hostility.
I didn’t get to talk about any of that.
As if reading off a script, in the most direct voice, my friend told me how I’m an asshole, I get on everyone’s nerves, and everyone is leaving me. He said that I just use my mental health as a front to deflect issues. He said he would give me a week to think about this, improve myself.
I don’t remember what else he said, I don’t know if it mattered. None of it felt genuine. All these negative thoughts I was telling myself were just being reaffirmed.
And in that moment I saw all of my friends leave me.
I trusted them.
But now they’re gone.
It’s been a week, almost 2 now, and nobody has contacted me like they said they were going to.
I think they’re gone.
I feel like I’m just in a downward spiral, nothing is making me happy anymore. I don't smile anymore.
BMG, I need some advice.
Last week, I had a revelation. But not in a good way.
I made it a goal of mine to be more social, because I was feeling lonely last year. And thus, at the beginning of this semester, I put myself out there, being more social to those around me as much as I could. I started going to the gym more, in hopes that I could look better, whatever that really means.
It wasn’t until last week after I had worked out my legs that I sat down to eat dinner with the people I had been working out with, when it happened. One of the people there compared me to a guy I really don’t like. Like, this guy is an asshole, and I wouldn’t want to be like him. I thought it was a one time remark, and I told him to never say that to me again.
Then not even 10 minutes later, he compared me to him again. So I stormed off and left for my room.
I’m not proud of that, my mask had slipped even for just a moment, but when I arrived to my room I gave myself time to reflect.
Is this really how people perceive me?
Is this how I want to be known?
And in that moment, I realized I didn’t know the answer.
I took a look at myself in the mirror and hated what I saw.
Just another loser, like the rest of them.
I looked at my "friends"
Just acquaintances, I don’t mean anything to them.
I don’t know what to do now. I was lying to everyone just as I was lying to myself that things were getting better. Lying to myself I had control.
But now I’m back to square one.
Back to never being able to muster up courage to open my mouth and say what I want to say. To tell someone they have nice clothes, or someone else that they’re good at the piano, or someone else that I want to get to know them.
I know I usually don’t ask for advice here, and I’m not even sure if anybody reads these,
But how can I make things better?
I’m sorry you had to see me like this, I just needed to get my thoughts out of my system.
Whenever I write a Blog post, I always try to open it in a different way. I couldn't tell you why, I've just always done that.
This blog post will be a bit more personal, and is a primary reason as to why I've added a new disclaimer, so if you are not okay with topics of death, you should not read this.
Before I began this semester of college, I would visit my grandmother, whose health was declining. Maybe it was my optimism, but I believed she was getting better, as she was showing no signs of mental deterioration, and was taking her medications. My entire family was dedicated to helping her as much as we could.
The day before I went back to college, we went to see her, and before we left her home, she left in an ambulance.
Once again, I went to see her in the hospital. Me and her had a chat before I went off to college. I brought up how she gave me a birthday card for my 21st birthday this year, which had the words “You are my sunshine” on it. She would always sing that song's first verse to me as a child, and when I brought it up to her, she told me it was about losing a loved one.
I've always struggled with saying the words "I love you" throughout my life, but I knew at that moment, I needed to tell her.
It wasn’t even 2 weeks later when she would be diagnosed with cancer.
And another week when I would see her again.
She was in much worse shape, and she couldn’t speak.
And it was only another week until she would pass away
“I'm just happy I told her I loved her when I was able, and before she was unable to hear it.”
~ Me to my friend.
Her funeral was the moment I realized how many people my grandmother had positively affected throughout her life. So many people came to her funeral, and memories would play on the projector screen. She had nothing but good in her heart, and it was clear she shared it with the world. As close to our home, to as far away as third world countries.
I love my grandma,
And I miss her.
Been a while, huh?
I feel like I visit this page so often, looking at my previous entries, thinking about where I currently am. Then I go into the the dashboard and stare at an empty blog listing, and I think...
"What am I really willing to share?"
And that's where I've been stuck for these past months. My mood has been on the decline for months. I feel overwhelmed, understimulated, lonely, stressed, depressed, etc. I've been avoiding people, social events, everything. I only just recently noticed I was going out of my way to avoid these things.
So, what do I do? That's where I'm stuck. I can't just lay in bed and feel bad for myself, that doesn't help anyone. I'm behind on my work because of that, and that's another whole avenue of stress going down my pipeline.
That's where I've been these past few months. Wallowing in my loneliness, lonliness turns into sadness, unchecked sadness turns into depression. A simple formula for suffering. Doesn't help I have social anxiety.
It's a real shame too! I have so many ideas I want to build on this webpage, but I need to focus on school. So I've decided to take a bit of a social media break.
This means, no more discord calls/dms/anything there for the rest of the month. I noticed it's been taking up too much of my time and mental space as of recent. Sorry to all my friends on there. I'll still be semi-active here on Neocities though! I'll update some way to contact me here besides Steam soon enough, I'm just a bit exhausted is all.
Now, I'll end this blog post with a bit of a poem, my writing class has me in the mood for one!
So here I sit, this entry lays
An empty post, aged ten days.
Invisible text, only I see,
Revived once again, all for free.
I hope this text finds you well, whomever you may be,
I know I'll be fine, so I'll catch you later,
BMG
Another Semester begins, BMG!
Just like at the beginning of last semester, I'll write out each class I'm taking and what I think about them so far.
Germs, Outbreaks, Pandemics, & People: Another 8 AM class!!! My favorite!!! I hate waking up early, but this class has been fine so far. I think the entertaining premise of the class will keep me occupied, but the early time slot always gets to me eventually. I also don't like writing too much, and this class seems to be heavy on the writing side.
Intro to Creative Writing: Okay, so you know how I just said I didn't like writing. I might be stupid for taking this class, but it's sadly a requirement. The class contents are kinda in the name.
Ethics in the American Justice System: This class is taught by one of my favorite teachers, he speaks directly to the class about the topics at hand, and asks the class what they believe. This class will have many debates, essays, and tests, but I think it will be great thanks to the professor's teaching style. It was also introduced to me as "Ethics injustice" which I thought was based, because yeah, there's a lot of injustice in modern day criminal justice.
Cryptography: I love cybersecurity! Here I'll learn how to encrypt digital goods and whatnot. So far we're talking about the history of computer and system security, and then how to decrypt a system's administrator password.
Operating Systems: Ah, Operating Systems. Windows, Linux, MacOS, iOS, AndroidOS. I'll be learning about kernels, processors, drivers, RAM, etc. I think it'll be a fun time. The professor is awesome.
So far I'm looking optimistic. I'm talking more with my online friends and less so with irl acquaintances. Playing Halo MCC and other games with online friends.
Well, I better get back to work, goodbye BMG.
I hope you're satisfied out there.
Hello from England!
As I mentioned in my previous blog post, I have an English stepdad, so we come over here to visit some of his family. They're really nice! It's the little things here in England that always get me. Like calling fries chips, or calling chips crisps.
Any time I asked for fries at a restaurant they gave me potato wedges!!!
Sorry for not updating this webpage sooner, I've been preoccupied with friends and family and moving into a new house! I didn't move in myself completely over Thanksgiving because I was going back to college right after, but now I have a huge TV in my room!
As this semester comes to a close, I can rest easy knowing that I've passed all of my classes. Thank god.
This next semester should be easier, but I hope to get some well earned rest when I get home, and who knows! Maybe I'll create a huge update to this page!
I just bought Supporter for this page, so be happy for that Mr. Neocities!
So Happy New Year BMG, I need to get to bed now as I have a train to catch at 5:00 AM, then a flight at 7:00, then 14 hours of flying and driving back home.
Great talking with you as always. Rest easy.
Another monthly Blog Mage Gaming post,
If you haven't seen it yet, I've been working on a VALORANT section of this website.
My esport coach caught me coding the VALORANT section of my website, and thought the idea of keeping track of my valorant growth for this month was good! A little bit later down the line, he told me that he told some of my upper-level computer science mates about my project, and thought that I should show my professor my progress so far.
My Professor loved it! He thought it was very cool, especially that I hand-coded the whole thing myself.
Last week I went home for Thanksgiving, and a lot happened in that time frame. My mom got married, which is great! My new stepdad is very nice, and scottish! I also helped my mom move into a new house, which was fine, the house needs some work and my cats are a bit noided because of it, but it's cool overall.
Now for the stressful stuff, I had 3 final tier projects due that week. A paper about Elon Musk's acquisition of Twitter, A textbook chapter about cybercrime, and tests about 12 different articles about social media and wellbeing. I'll just admit, I didn't get it all done. I got the tests and most of the textbook chapter's first draft done. But with these weighing me down, it was really hard to enjoy my Thanksgiving break.
Oh yeah, and about that girl from last blog post, I'm over her now. I didn't have a chance in the first place. 
Very sorry for the lack of updates, I'm hoping to get back into the swing of things by December 12th. A mimir BMG, stay sane out there.
Hey BMG,
Okay, I'll be transparent for a second,
Alright now with that out of the way, I've been having an outright horrible time as of recent. So much so that I can create an itemized list!
College has been really stressful as of late, it just seems like work upon work upon work and it never ends. Sometimes when I think it's over, I miss something that was posted to Blackboard or something emailed to me that wasn't brought up in class. The way my mind works is that I should be told what I need to do, not that I should search for what I need to do. (Atleast with schoolwork, I obviously do my own things like laundry and groceries for myself without being told.)
With this in mind, I've decided to drop Calculus 2 and take it over the summer. Waking up at 8 AM every day just to not understand anything due to sleep deprivation has really impacted my mental state. These last 3 weeks have been horrible and I can only hope that this will make me feel a tad bit better.
Here's coping!
On top of that, I've been feeling a bit lonely. Not to get all Ryan Gosling Bladerunner: he's just like me! but I haven't really been putting myself out there as much, and that's 100% been bringing my mental state down. I only really talk to my online friends in the BMG and people irl at the Esports lab.
Mind you, I'm doing great in Esports right now! I have a lot of fun when I play with my team usually. Recently I had spoken with a foreign exchange student on the team, and he was really cool! Very nice to talk with, and he said we were friends now :)
But that was a recent event keep in mind. I think I can get over this if I just put myself out there more. It's a weird feeling.
Oh boy, here's what's been arguably bothering me the most. It's a bit personal, so if you're not into that kind of stuff, you can skip this whole paragraph. A while back, I don't know exact dates, (time is a flat circle for me) I met this girl on the Esport team, on the Valorant team I'm on actually, and I kinda, sorta, just a little bit have a crush on her. I've not felt like this in years, and it's an odd feeling to have all of a sudden. I doubt anything would come from it, but I'd love to be her friend! She's really cool and I like being around her. It's hard to explain the stress I have about it. She already has a boyfriend, so I can't really do anything about that, and she's a part of the Esport team, so I don't want to be seen as that guy on the team.
But with all that being said, I still have these feelings. It's really weird. I'm not the most socially adept, keep in mind.
On the bright side, I reached gold rank in Valorant! That was my goal for the month, and having competent teammates to queue with has been a huge help.
And that's where I am currently,
I think life should get better soon, I just need more sleep.
So good night BMG, it was very nice getting my thoughts down. I hope I can see you at a later date.
Good evening BMG!
I'm currently typing this in the computer lab because of a fire drill that happened at my dorm! Mind you, there is no fire, they do this to search us for contraband, not unlike a prison! Excuse my harsh wording, but I'm a bit peeved because it happened 1 hour before an important meeting I need to be at. (It's virtual, so I need to have my computer.)
So, that's where I am currently, but what about the time I spent away from my blog?
This past week has been a roller coaster. First, some good: I bought some CDs of an artist I had never heard of before, but it was a genre that has always been on my radar. I'm talking FUTURE FUNK. It's this cool mixture of synth, vaporwave, and a lot of other things that scratches that specific itch in my brain. The two albums I bought were both from an artist named Groovy Kaiju, and they are Monster Tape Zero and Destroy All Monsters.
I love these albums, they really do scratch that itch in my brain for this kind of music, and it transports me to a whole new world in my imagination every time I listen to it.
It's absolutely amazing, and I give them a full hearted reccomendation.
Next, some bad: I've been having more and more trouble with my classes, the lack of sleep is really affecting me. I've found myself passing out in bed after I go back to my dorm after my classes. I wish there was another way to take this calculus class aside from 8 AMs every day.
Well, now I'm back in my dorm, and I was able to get to the meeting on time. I'm gonna go to bed. Glad I could get this typed out. Hope I can see you later.
Good morning BMG!
Hoo boy, I've been really tired recently. 8 AM classes every day have been taking their toll on me. Calculus gets really involved, and its hard to stay engaged when you just woke up and are running on 6 hours of sleep.
Besides that, I recently bought some LEDs for my room to light it up a nice blue, and I hung up my posters. Now all thats left is to actually organize my room, which I'll probably do today. The only reason I haven't done it yet is because I thought I would be able to lift my bed up.
I've been watching some older anime with my friends recently, things like Lupin the 3rd, Trigun (1998) and Cowboy Bebop. These are some of my favorite series ever, and I really hope my friends like them, even if its a fraction of as much as I do.
Some nice things have happened at college recently, the Valorant Esports team on campus that I'm a part of have won the first games of the Premier league! I introduced my Social Media professor to "literally me" movies.
That's all for today! See you next week probably, bye!
What's up BMG!
Today is actually my first day of college for this semester! Which means I had to wake up bright and early at 6 AM. I spent my morning planning out where all my classes were located on campus. I'll go over all of my classes today as they come.
Calculus 2: Might as well get this out of the way now. This is going to be the class I struggle with the most this year. It is at 8 AM every weekday, and I'm really not a morning person. I think I can survive it, I just need to get through it.
Social Media: Yeah, I thought taking a class on social media would be fun, and so far, I still think it will be. But today the professor briefly mentioned "Skibidi Toilet" and I don't remember much else from the class because oh my god. Oh my god.
Criminology: I had taken this same professor for White Collar Crime last year, and I think that this class is formatted in the exact same way. It's quite cutthroat with its grading however. But I like the professor, and I think I'll have a good time like I did last year.
Assembly Language: This is one of my Computer Science classes for the year, the other is "Advanced Programming". As the name of the class suggests, yes, this class is all about the Assembly programming language, AKA: Machine level code. Today we just went over Binary and Hexadecimal, which I already know. I'm really happy the Computer Science professor is still here, he's my favorite professor overall.
I've been writing this entry since I finished my first class, sorry this blog entry is longer than the others, I'm really happy to be back at college again.
Anyways, sorry to ramble on, and thank you for reading. Until next time, see you soon!
Hello BMG!
I celebrated my 20th birthday recently, and I had a great time! I'm going to watch Barbie later this weekend with some IRLs and I can't wait for that since Ryan Gosling is one of my favorite actors of all time.
The gifts I recieved are:
I've been thinking about making a "collection" page for this website. It would show the things I'm proud of owning, like games or vinyl records. Be on the lookout for that!
Anyways, I've had a pretty good life as of recent. Until next time, I'll write to you later!
Good Afternoon BMG!!!
Although I created this page a few days ago, I haven't actually made any blog posts, my fault og. Anyways, I've been messing around with CDs lately, and I converted two of my spotify playlists onto CDs.
Right now I am currently in a Discord call with two of my good Friends, Morshu and Varik.
Visual representation:
I think it would be cool if they had their own websites, then we could be good friends :).
Anyways, thats all for today, until next time! See you then!